Psalm 46:10 says, “Be still and know that I am God”. This sentence, this thought, has come up in conversation, in prayer and in my Bible reading more and more in recent weeks. It is such a commanding and comforting verse. It sounds almost relaxing! It’s not. It’s hard.
I have never thought of myself as an on the go, full of movement type person. I like rest, and naps and curling up with a good book. I have realized though that while I’m resting, I constantly require something to keep from being still in my mind. Being still doesn’t just involve resting my body. That’s definitely a start, but there are so many devices and opportunities to be physically still, but mentally consumed with anything but God. Being still involves stopping and realizing YOU are not in control of ANYTHING!
When we moved to Yakima 3 ½ years ago, our lives slowed down. No more rush hour shaving 3 hours off our day. No more commute to everything. No more knowing anyone within a 300 mile radius. It tends to lead to a slower pace. I thought, “Whew! Now I can breathe and find some peace. That business is behind me”. Much to my horror, I found myself becoming more and more depressed. Wait! I was supposed to be feeling better. We obeyed and slowed down life. We were trying to be more still. Guess what slowing down does; what stopping and being still does…. It tends to show you the broken areas of yourself. The areas you need to give over to God. I found, and am still finding those areas. They are so much more apparent in my “stripped down” version of life. It’s a daily struggle and sometimes, okay many times, I forget. I over-commit, over-do, over-think, over activitize (is that a word?) to avoid looking at and assessing these broken places. I’m afraid of being still in those moments. I don’t feel like I can handle what God will show me. I’ve forgotten that that God doesn’t lead me where He can’t find me or protect me. I’m reminded that,
“God is our refuge and strength, an every-present help in trouble”. Psalm 46:1.
I allow myself to become overwhelmed and over-consumed by my troubles and fears. To which a wise and wonderful woman of God reminded me (thank you, Pattie!);
“Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning, great is your faithfulness.” Lamentations 3:22-23
I’ve forgotten the second half of that sentence. God isn’t just asking me to be still and then deal with it alone. He is asking me to be still and know that HE is GOD! He is in control. This world, these situations, my brokenness do not need to consume me. I can allow God to be in control. I can acknowledge His Lordship over my life and the world (17,000 times a day, if need be) and know that He will, He has, consumed the trials of this world.
Written by Gretchen Buegge